This is my story. The reason why I am who I am today.

I have made so many mistakes in my life. 

Seriously, a crap load of them. 

But nothing even comes close to that day. 

Ahh! 

The day you left me. 

Oh wait, scratch that! 

The day I left you. T.T 

I was stupid, young. Extremely naive! 

I thought I was doing the right thing. 

I freaked out, that's the truth. 

It was entirely my fault. 

I shouldn't have left cause maybe you'd still be by my side if I hadn't. <'3  

Who was he?

His name was Anthony. 

A year older than I am. We met a few years back. 

I was 12, he was 13. 

He was, hands down, the NICEST guy I have ever met. 

But hey, I didn't fall for him instantly, 

This isn't some stupid fairytale with all those "Love at first sight" crap. 

But I gotta admit, I did like him the second I laid eyes on him. 

But sadly, there is no happy ending to this story, but I'll get to that later. 

Back to the day we met, he was so shy >.< 

omg it was sooo adorable to look at. 

He was stuttering at almost every sentence, ahhh he made my heart melt. 

And those dimples when he smiles. It breaks my heart each time I think about them. 

He was beautiful, inside and out. 

He wasn't perfect of course. 

He had his flaws. I loved his flaws. 

He was uptight, cranky, he talks way too much and he made me hate him, he was a jerkkkk! Haha :') 

But when I was sad, he was always there for me. 

He was my type, a guy who isn't perfect which makes him perfect in every way for me. 

A caring, funny, shy asshole. :') 

I fell for him, HARD!

We got together just a year after knowing each other. 

Everything was perfect. 

Until.... Ahhhhhhh! I blew everything!!! 

I broke up with him just 5 months after being together. 

My reason? or errr, excuse?

I though we were moving too fast so I said we needed a break. 

STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID! !

And so, we became friends. Best friends. We still did everything together. 

And then, the almighty f*ck up happened!! 

His friend, Nelson, who was from KL came down. 

And well, Nelson and I started getting close. =S 

And we kinda got together. For awhile. T.T 

And when Anthony found out, he got pissed at Nels, not me. 

Which isn't fair cause I'm just as much to blame. >.< 

And Anthony, being the jerky idiot that he is, 

he stole his dad car keys and drove to where Nels and I were hanging that night! 

SOOO STUPID!!! 

And he got into a car accident. 

It was bad. 

He hit his head hard. :'( 

He didn't die. 

But it was really bad. 

I broke up with Nels right after cause it felt wrong.

I still loved Anthony more than anything. 

AHHH I'M SO STUPID!!! 

Hmm, everything went back to normal after that.

Anthony and I forgot all about the Nelson incident.

I was forgiven. :')

He told me he loved me and that he will always love me.

We still weren't together that time, but we were about to be. 

But noooooo, I had to f*ck up again!

 In 2008, we got into a fight. 

A stupid fight which seems totally meaningless to me now! 

And again, he drove, pissed off at me. 

And came to see me face to face. 

We fought at the stairs! 

Screaming at each other.

 I still remember everything as if it was just yesterday! >.< 

We were so mad, I was crying like crazy!

I thought I was forgiven! 

Why bring back the past?

In the midst of our fight, he lost his balance at the stairs. 

WHY WERE WE AT THE STAIRWAY??? :'(((( 

He was rushed to the hospital. 

Normah Hospital. 

3 weeks. 

3 damn weeks he were confined. 

He never woke up.

 

He passed away May 26, 2008 due to a major brain injury. 

My heart broke into a million pieces. 

Our fights, it was stupid!! 

I never stopped loving you. 

Not since the day I left you. 

Not even at the day you left me. 

You'll always be in my heart. 

I will love you forever. 

I go back to the day you told me you loved me. 

I go back to the day you said you never wanted to see me again but then showed up the next day begging me to forgive you. 

I go back to all the time we spent together. 

Anthony Arthur M.

Mahal ang mahal kita. 

I miss you so much. 

It's been years, but you're still here in my heart. 

Forever & always.

So guys.... That is my story. Not many people know the whole truth. Just bits of pieces of it. This is everything. Well, mostly. Overall, it was my fault. The whole thing.