The Other Side

I came across this while I was video hopping on YouTube a while ago.

Yes, yes. It's another Bruno Mars song. What can I say? I love his songs.

This song kinda brings back memories.

I'm not so sure if that's a good or bad thing.

Anyways, it's featuring Cee Lo Green & B.O.B

Which makes it way more awesome.

 

BRUNO MARS

 

 

 

 

 

CEE LO GREEN

B.O.B

The Other Side

Truth of the matter is I'm complicated
You're as straight as they come
You go 'bout your day baby
While I had from the sun

It's better if you don't understand
Cause you wont know what it's like
Til you try

You know I've been waiting on the other side
And you, all you gotta do is cross the line
I could wait a whole life time
But you just gotta decide
You know I
I've been waiting on the other, waiting on the other side

We would live forever
Who could ask for more
You could die if you wanted
But baby what for

It's better if you don't understand
And you won't know what it's like
Til you try

You know I've been waiting on the other side
And you, all you gotta do is cross the line
I could wait a whole life time
But you just gotta decide
You know I
I've been waiting on the other, waiting on the other side

If they say life's a dream
Call this insomnia
Cause this ain't Wonderland
It damn sure ain't Narnia
And once you cross the line
You can't change your mind
Yeah I'm a monster
But I'm no Frankenstein
And quite frankly
I've been feeling insane in between my eyes
I really cant explain what I feel inside
If you knew what I was you's would run and hide
Many have tried to go into the night
Cross over the line and come back alive
But that's the price we pay when we living on the other side

You know I've been waiting on the other side
And you, all you gotta do is cross the line
I could wait a whole life time
But you just gotta decide
You know I
I've been waiting on the other, waiting on the other side

It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand
It's better if you don't understand

What hurts most

Note: To understand this post, you'll have to read my last post first. 

People just don't get it.

 You don't get me.

Someone told me I did it out of sympathy, that I broke up with Nels just cause I pitied Anthony. 

Well, it is not true. 

Like I said, I don't expect you to believe me. 

But I do love Anthony.

 I left him, cause I loved him but I was scared cause I was only 14 years old, for God sakes!

 What did I even know about love then?? 

Nothing!

 I was scared of it, especially after seeing how well my parents marriage worked out

( it was not good) 

I didn't want it, so instead, I told him we should just be friends.

 Which we did become in the end. 

I had other boyfriends after we broke up, and Anthony knew about them, cause I told him of course. 

I didn't want him to find out from other people. 

But one thing he didn't know: 

None of my ex, ABSOLUTELY none of them comes even remotely close to being as great a person as him. 

He was truly one in a million. T.T 

I started comparing, which is bad! 

Almost everytime I date a guy, I would compare him to Anthony. 

Ahh! I do it unconsciously, which makes it worst! 

All I think about was him. 

I was obsess with him but I didn't wanna admit it to myself. 

I dated like crazy just so I'd stop thinking about him, I had more than 10 bfs within 2007-2008, including Anthony's friend, Nelson who was the biggest mistake. 

I dated Nelson because he was a little like Anthony. 

BAHH! Found out in the end that he was just a playboy. 

Just wrong. 

But as you all know from my last post, there was where all the trouble started. 

Not gonna talk about that again tho. 

Ahhh, I'm just so frustrated right now.

A little piece of advice for everyone out there. 

If you love someone, don't let go so fast like I did. Hold on to it, cherish it. 

IMY A.A.M

This song has been playing in my mind since 1pm.

What hurts most for me is thinking what we could have become if I didn't let you go. 

This is my story. The reason why I am who I am today.

I have made so many mistakes in my life. 

Seriously, a crap load of them. 

But nothing even comes close to that day. 

Ahh! 

The day you left me. 

Oh wait, scratch that! 

The day I left you. T.T 

I was stupid, young. Extremely naive! 

I thought I was doing the right thing. 

I freaked out, that's the truth. 

It was entirely my fault. 

I shouldn't have left cause maybe you'd still be by my side if I hadn't. <'3  

Who was he?

His name was Anthony. 

A year older than I am. We met a few years back. 

I was 12, he was 13. 

He was, hands down, the NICEST guy I have ever met. 

But hey, I didn't fall for him instantly, 

This isn't some stupid fairytale with all those "Love at first sight" crap. 

But I gotta admit, I did like him the second I laid eyes on him. 

But sadly, there is no happy ending to this story, but I'll get to that later. 

Back to the day we met, he was so shy >.< 

omg it was sooo adorable to look at. 

He was stuttering at almost every sentence, ahhh he made my heart melt. 

And those dimples when he smiles. It breaks my heart each time I think about them. 

He was beautiful, inside and out. 

He wasn't perfect of course. 

He had his flaws. I loved his flaws. 

He was uptight, cranky, he talks way too much and he made me hate him, he was a jerkkkk! Haha :') 

But when I was sad, he was always there for me. 

He was my type, a guy who isn't perfect which makes him perfect in every way for me. 

A caring, funny, shy asshole. :') 

I fell for him, HARD!

We got together just a year after knowing each other. 

Everything was perfect. 

Until.... Ahhhhhhh! I blew everything!!! 

I broke up with him just 5 months after being together. 

My reason? or errr, excuse?

I though we were moving too fast so I said we needed a break. 

STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID! !

And so, we became friends. Best friends. We still did everything together. 

And then, the almighty f*ck up happened!! 

His friend, Nelson, who was from KL came down. 

And well, Nelson and I started getting close. =S 

And we kinda got together. For awhile. T.T 

And when Anthony found out, he got pissed at Nels, not me. 

Which isn't fair cause I'm just as much to blame. >.< 

And Anthony, being the jerky idiot that he is, 

he stole his dad car keys and drove to where Nels and I were hanging that night! 

SOOO STUPID!!! 

And he got into a car accident. 

It was bad. 

He hit his head hard. :'( 

He didn't die. 

But it was really bad. 

I broke up with Nels right after cause it felt wrong.

I still loved Anthony more than anything. 

AHHH I'M SO STUPID!!! 

Hmm, everything went back to normal after that.

Anthony and I forgot all about the Nelson incident.

I was forgiven. :')

He told me he loved me and that he will always love me.

We still weren't together that time, but we were about to be. 

But noooooo, I had to f*ck up again!

 In 2008, we got into a fight. 

A stupid fight which seems totally meaningless to me now! 

And again, he drove, pissed off at me. 

And came to see me face to face. 

We fought at the stairs! 

Screaming at each other.

 I still remember everything as if it was just yesterday! >.< 

We were so mad, I was crying like crazy!

I thought I was forgiven! 

Why bring back the past?

In the midst of our fight, he lost his balance at the stairs. 

WHY WERE WE AT THE STAIRWAY??? :'(((( 

He was rushed to the hospital. 

Normah Hospital. 

3 weeks. 

3 damn weeks he were confined. 

He never woke up.

 

He passed away May 26, 2008 due to a major brain injury. 

My heart broke into a million pieces. 

Our fights, it was stupid!! 

I never stopped loving you. 

Not since the day I left you. 

Not even at the day you left me. 

You'll always be in my heart. 

I will love you forever. 

I go back to the day you told me you loved me. 

I go back to the day you said you never wanted to see me again but then showed up the next day begging me to forgive you. 

I go back to all the time we spent together. 

Anthony Arthur M.

Mahal ang mahal kita. 

I miss you so much. 

It's been years, but you're still here in my heart. 

Forever & always.

So guys.... That is my story. Not many people know the whole truth. Just bits of pieces of it. This is everything. Well, mostly. Overall, it was my fault. The whole thing. 

My first post

Well, sorta my first post, I guess. I had another blog last time but I kind of have forgotten the password. Thumps up! -.-''

Anyhoo.... Life pretty much sucks for now! >.<

My parents left for NZ yesterday, they'll be gone for 2 weeks so I'm under house arrest until they get back, almost literally.  

I am not allowed to do anything. The only place I can go is college, and that is only when I have class, I'm not even allowed to stay back for lunch or anything. I can't stay at home, I have to be at my grandmothers house at ALL times until evening when my tita(Aunty in tagalog) Pinky is done with work, then I can go home. In other words, I'm not allowed to be ALONE. :S 

So yeah. It SUCKS! 

I can't go out on weekends, so I cant make it for the Flip Flop Beach party. D: Ohhh! And I need to stick to these rules, cause apparently "THEY ARE WATCHING ME"! Now THAT i mean literally, my dad has his friends driving pass  my college to make sure I didnt skip. >.< Pffft! I only did that ONCE, which was yesterday HAHA cause I went to Damai with my friend, Max. (What can I say? I'm a rebel) & I can't bring anyone to my house or even go out at night because they installed a CCTV right at our front door! O.O OMG KILL ME! I know they do this cause they think it's for the best, but seriously, let a girl breathe please! >.< Sheesh. 

Gah, I'm in an EMO-MODE now. Don't mind me. Hmm. Guess that's all for now.

Listen to this song! Maxine intro it to me yesterday and I've instantly fallen in love with it. <3


WHO IS - BRUNO MARS

Lyrics:

Oh I was perfect 

For the circus

If she dared me I'd do it

Love makes you stupid

I gave it up

But I guess it was not enough

'Cos she never seems satisfied

I know I'm not perfect

But at the end of the day

Who is?

She wanted someone that's perfect, 

Okay.

But can you tell me who is?

She set the bar

Just above the stars

A rocket couldn't reach it

But I still kept on reaching

She watched me try

Atleast a thousand times

If she loved me she'd stop me, 

But no

I know I'm not perfect

But at the end of the day

Who is?

She wanted someone that's perfect

Okay.

But can you tell me who is?

I saw something worth my future

So wrong, so wrong.

In my mind I would find a reason ???

But I guess I wasn't wrong

I know I'm not perfect

But at the end of the day

Who is?

She wanted someone that's perfect

Okay.

But can you tell me 

Who is?

I might wanna make a cover of this soon. :)